Like every night I was there in my balcony engulfed in the silence of the night. Often those memories would come and greet me. Sometimes with a smile, sometimes with a tear and sometimes with an anger that I myself was scared of.
But tonight before I could meet those memories, a guilty thought just ripped me apart.
The guilt of cheat and betray....I was once again betraying my soul.
Shattered with my own thought, I returned to the silence of the night unaware of the game it had planned for me. I could feel myself going in two different directions. Questions started to attack me and there was no place to hide. Where does one really go when your own soul starts to question you?
The night had come prepared to take me down, but I was determined to stay strong as well. The silence around me was pulling me to those dark alleys of the days gone by.
And suddenly there it was, those eyes looking at me, those hands holding my hand and assuring me, telling me "I will not let you fall again". I smiled and closed my eyes surrendering myself to my present and the future awaiting me.
The past has to go. Determined to let it go, I tell myself 'its over', the night is over, the nightmare is over, that love is over..... and then a voice comes from within me.... "Is it really over???"
With tears in my eyes, I go back to the balcony and wait for the wind to take me away, far far away..............probably to those days again!!!
Another night loses the battle!!!
2 comments:
they say it may be stormy today but it can't rain everyday.
one battle lost one night cannot make u loose the battle forever.
bhavna
Yes absolutely....The character is this story is positive enough to atleast try, while some ppl give up even before trying. This is the message for all to never give up.. Its just about time :)
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