That Rainy Day...........

Long after they both hung up, Maahi was still awake, listening to rain drops and thunderstorm with a heavy heart. Sleep was nowhere close to her eyes. Her mind was nowhere close to her present. Her heart was not with her at all. It was still there, somewhere in past holding on to the best memories of her life. Memories she wanted to let go of now but for some reason was not able to. The moment she would think of letting go of those memories, it would kill her as if her soul was being taken away from her.

But tonight, she didn’t know what to do. She was not able to understand if this was a dream or the dream was finally over and she is back to reality. After all that longing and waiting, she heard what she had wanted to hear for long. "Can we meet once?” Manik was visiting her town for work and he wanted to meet her but to her surprise she didn't know what to do. She wanted to say yes, but her mind said no. The struggle within her had begun again.

Six years had passed since they parted their ways on that rainy day. It was a mutual separation, a divorce where no abuses were hurled, no explanations demanded and no reasons given. He asked for it, and she signed the papers without any questions. Their friends said it was a painless divorce but only Maahi knew the pain she had been through in those six years.

Ending a twelve year old relationship was not easy for her. But she had to pick up those fallen pieces somewhere and gather herself again.  As they say nothing lasts forever, not even the pain. Time heals everything and one must allow oneself to move on. After living a hellish life for almost 6 years, she was now ready to start afresh. And yet here she was, contemplating the option of meeting him. She finally told him that she will not be able to meet him. Manik was taken aback with the answer and all he could tell her to think over it once and that he would call her while he is there.

She didn't know how long she sat there thinking about all this. She didn’t know in between she had a smile on her lips for a while and a few moments later she had those tears which she had held back for long. That one call from him made her re-think her decision of never to see him again. Just one call and she was all ready to go back, back to the same betrayal, same indifference and same person. She was all excited again to see him....6 long years and nothing had changed in her. She probably still felt the same, what she felt 6 years back.

It was a rainy day. Standing at her window, holding a cup of tea in her hands, she was lost in her own thoughts. Once again she was rehearsing in her mind what she would say when she meets Manik. Even though she had said no, she was sure he would call her. She knew him well and had started expecting the call from him. She had decided she will not go weak in knees in front of him and make him realise what he had lost. She will seek all her answers now...questions that she never asked and he never bothered to answer.

Since that call last week, Maahi’s impatience had grown. She would check her phone every now and then hoping to see some message or a missed call. She was still lost in her thoughts when her phone beeped. It was a message from Manik. Colour drained her face due to nervousness yet she was excited enough like a small kid. 

"In the aircraft, leaving your town. Will never bother you again. Goodbye forever… Manik”

She stood still looking out of the window, with rain drops splashing her face. Nobody could make out if those were tears or the raindrops on her face streaming down.

Everything was same as it was six years back. The rain, the heart break, the loneliness…even the question running on her mind was same, “How can you leave like this?” Once again the mind was mocking the heart….."You think you know him??"

'The question never got answered..the heart remained silent'